Awake.

I hate nights like these. As I surfed my way through the internet, I found myself on craigslist looking at the job posts. Why do I do this to myself? Every time I do the job search, I freak myself out and I am almost convinced that I will never find a job that will make me happy and give me a decent income. Now I feel panicked, and I want to get back to NJ/NY to control my future. Being home doesn't motivate me. It's making me anxious. I do not like the feeling of standing still. I thirst for progress. I thirst for success. I'm searching for that opportunity that will open a million doors for me. I need to keep moving.