It only does up from here.

I really need to get back on track. This semester I really slacked off. I did good in the BS classes, but the classes I really needed to get through to continue, I fucked it all up. Ya, I know... my fault and I'll say it again and again... I'm going to own up to it. I think this semester really opened my eyes. I need to stay focused and do what I need to do. Thank God for Garreth. He told me, "Babe I know how you're feeling before because I've been through it before. It only goes up from here." I love him so much more for telling me those six words. How did I find someone who can get to me like that? God really sent me an angel because he gives me the optimism I need to keep on going.

This summer I'm going to re-discover myself because I NEED to. I need to get back on track, remember how to focus and not let the extra-curricular things divert my attention. Yes, they are also important but school is more important. I let other things get in my way and I'm determined to never let it happen again. Garreth inspires me. He worked so hard this semester and I'm so proud of him. Only if I could be proud of myself right now. All negative thoughts aside, "It only goes up from here."